mum2

The sky was dark.. Rain came down..
Business was quite ok.. not much to complain..
but things went wrong when we went home..
lights were on in the house..
which meant mum is back..
but as we went in..
piles of things were packed up n mum was sitting there..
it was obvious that mum wanted to leave..
this ain't joking matter..
does things really had to go until this situation??
i'm not a straightforward person..
i dun noe how to express words or feelings..
especially when it comes to kinship..
if i don't remember wrongly..
i have not been saying "i love you" to my parents..
have not been hugging them..
most probably i felt shy..
but this wasn't suppose to be, right?
we as children should love our parents who brought us here..
i really want to ask mum to stay.. but stubborn person she is now persist to go..
i cried.. i hide aside to weep..
why is this happening??
i kept asking mum why she want to go..
when she is coming back..
why she want to take all the things..
where she is going..
the answers she gave seems to avoid the truth..
she ignored my dad..
she was mad at my dad..
everything he asked or said.. she made no response..
when an car came to fetch mum..
i initially didn't want to help mum to take the things out.. hoping her to stay..
but still i barefooted taking the things out and into the car..
sobbing and crying.. my tears just came down uncontrollably..
broken speech came out..
telling her to come back ASAP.. take care.. n bye bye..
my feelings were just so complicated that i dont know wat to say..
i'm just like a kid crying over a spilled milk..
what done is done..
being unfillial brings retribution..
n mine was a broken marriage between parents n mum is leaving home..
i'm tired now..
I juz pray that mum will be safe n could relax n cool down for the moment..
really hoping she will come back ASAP..
Please God.. bless n protect my mum.. thank you..

PS:i juz read an article n it touched me a lot.. especially after this matter..
http://cookie-4-u.blogspot.com/2010/05/blog-post.html

mum

it' been long.. how long? dunno.. HAHA..
n y i'm up here? easy.. coz i got internet.. finally..
just signed up yesterday..
a lot of things happened..
n i gues the most important and serious is mum..
mum's condition is getting serious..
too much pressure n affecting her to be very suspective..
n over a period of time.. she just went crazy..
n when mum told me (sms) she's in mental hospital..
some kind of depressed came up to me..
my parents' relationship is getting worst too..
i felt.. helpless..
i felt tired..
what will happened to mum n dad?
most worry bout mum's health..
she is getting weaker..
dunno how much longer she'll stay with us..
but as mum is very 'degil' person..
she dun't even to recognize my sis..
haiz.. i am a unfilial child.. not doing anything for them..