Feeling...

I don’t know why, but I just want tp post this out.
It was yesterday when I woke up from my dream made me wan 2 write this.
I really don’t know how I feel about him.
He was maybe the first guy let me to have this kind of feeling.
I sometimes will dream about him.
But whenever I dreamed of him, my heart will just feel pain.
Like I will suffocate anytime.
Everytime when I dreamed of him, he always seem the same.
The handsome cool one.
But always, he see me as I ate glass grew up.
He almost never seems to notice my existence.
He talked to others but not me.
He smiled broadly with others but none when facing me.
I hate this, I felt very sad.
I heard his voice, saw his face like just only a hair away.
But of course he never speak to me or facing me.
He just ignored me.
Though this is just a dream, but I feel pain in my heart.
How could I feel no pain when once I was so in love with him?
Not like others, I have no many other feelings, since it was just one-sided love.
I’m just a bit puzzled, why he blocked me in msn, deleted me in friendster?
No idea why he just doesn’t want any contact with me.
What exactly had I done wrong to deserve this?
Dreaming of him will make me happy but whenever he ignored me, I felt depressed when I woke up.
I really had no idea why this is happening?
Can anyone tell me???